"eternal return" 


I want to know what keeps you up at night
I lost something in the hills 
the other side
as I walk I see you lean
as I walk I see you lean you

on the day of execution I'll be counting down the hours
and on the day of execution I'll be spitting out the hours
worthless passerby 
I'd rather be the hammer than the nail
I'd rather be the one who hits
I'd rather be the one who hits than be hit
blackened fucking lungs
blew it all in her face

if I'm not around to hear it, that's the way it goes if i'm not around to see you that's the way it goes
a million things I should've said but the time was never right
a million things I should've done, but you always worked on me
you were a fly on the wall at all my parties and you heard all my conversations
I’ve been spending the last five years trying to forget about you
I looked for you in every page
 
twenty dollars in the bank two weeks all paid for what's my problem
got twenty dollars in the bank two weeks all paid for what’s my mother fucking 
you aint over til you’re over
I'm over I'm over I'm over
you aint over til you’re over
I'm over 
fuck it lets get on with it theres a million tricks to it
but you will get by if you just don't give a fuck about it
I can't sleep I've got the wires in my brain
I can't sleep I've got the wires in my brain
I want to see you on your knees
I want to see you beg for mercy
if I’m not satisfied
I’ve never been satisfied

the coward dies a thousand times afraid to go on
because his ears are bleeding but he's not dead
he's just been blinded by the lights and the cameras of life like
he can't see the forest for the trees like he can't see the stars for city light
but he found that fucking rock 
ain’t no higher than I 
they led me to that stone 
ain’t no higher than I 
and he's so scared of being alone and being wrong that it eats him up inside like a cancer until somebody feeds him to the wolves and lets him go home again with a smile on his face what's the difference 
hate to say it but I'm the fuck you've been staring at 
my back for years and now you can't decide

you don’t wear the same clothes anymore
when you’re down in the valley this is what you see
a vast panorama of trees and sky
here in this hollow is where I choose to be
life here is simple and easy to please
but just because you say don't give a fuck
you know that's a lie you're still afraid to get found out
fooling the world and yourself
is there a difference it's all fear don't tell me what's good for me

and I I want to see it all burn down tonight
my future is in the past tonight
night after night I see the same old star
if I if I could I would
put your brain in a blender so you can feel the light
if I if I could I would

this is my way of the future
misanthropes are running wild like hyenas through the streets spitting at pedestrians and people that you know here comes trouble
don't let me get in don't let me
don't let me get in don't let me
burning one right now sinking down right now
life's a pitch, throw it all right now
fuck it all right now I don't care at all
it's about to go down

you're the one so full of shit
obsessed image astral project
you have it all you're a liar
your eyes are shut mouth open wide
you have it all you're a liar
I’m a hot-blooded wax figureof a man in love with living
I’m an empty purse on Monday morning
I’m a new age of Aquarius
I’m a runaway wave to the war on me
if you’re looking for some time of peace
you won’t find it in my face
I’ve got my reasons every day my dear I’ve got my reasons you don’t understand
I’m gasping by the water just another day in the land of the lost and found 
and what is it that I see
it looks like me it can't be me it looks like
all this people we eclipse you
you’re not the only one confused
might be a hostage might be

now I'm standing on a hill empty city sits below
now I'm standing in a hole in the dirt
I know you want it just like I do
I know you've got me where you want me

my heart’s about to burst my heart’s about to burst
my heart’s about to burst my heart’s about to burst
I hate you so much it hurts I want you so much it hurts
I hate you so much it hurts I want you so much it hurts 
like kindred spirits at the top of the stairs
whispering secrets to each other until you faded into air
I was left alone to fall for the morning
I couldn't be you anymore so I found your blade
cut your name out of my arm
if you think I'm living you're wrong
eternal
eternal
eternal return